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  Hello all. =) 

You know. Today would have been a perfect day if I didn't feel horrible.
I feel tired, weak and as if I am about to pass out. Hmm maybe that has to do with the fact that I haven't eaten in 23 hours. Oh well. This is the first time I was able to fast in about a month. I've been restricting like no other. 
As I'm thinking about it, I haven't posted my status in a looong time. I've been stuck at the same weight but not anymore =)
Status:
5' 3"
cw: 87
gw:85 - by Thanksgiving.
gw2: 80
ugw: I dunno. I guess I will have to see how I feel once I reach 80. 

I hope everyone's day was lovely! What made you smile today? If anyone wants to chat message me! =]
<3xoxo<3Dexx.
 

Was good with my fast until three o'clock and then binged on pizza roles, noodles, and tasty cakes.

I seriously can't believe how weak and disgusting I am. I don't deserve to live.

I really hope you girls had a better day.

xx

i only had 230 calories today..
so why do i feel like i just ate a whale?
:(

I'm sorry for posting so much lately, but I have the day off and have been looking through thinspo/scenespo/everything else. I realized that my obsession for thin is only so people will like me, and so I will like myself. I don't care how big I am, as long as I get a boyfriend and am liked by people. But I do have goals.

I wanna be a size 10 - which is big, but I'm tall and my hip bones are only so small.
And I want to feel comfortable enough with my body to get my stomach pierced. ;x is that bad? 

I was flipping through my fitness magazine (Oxygen) & came across an ad for diet pills. My first thought at the model, "Still too fat".
Lol, I should be ashamed, but really, she is!

So I'm going vegitarian tonight. its gunna piss my mom off but i dont care.

yay for no more meat! which is alot of my daily intake but i <3 my tofu and just meats are getting boring quickly.

  Oh Oh and I Screwed Up,
I was in Hospital,
I was hit with horrible sstomache pain. Not sure why though. Maybe the stomache problems I was born with but kempt was Npo for 4 days. Hubby is pissed I am so low in my weight now. I don't see it though .UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh ! ! ! ! ! 

Hee found my Rainbow diet. and freaked. Tried to play it off but didn't work.

So I hid it, So I haven't been ignoring anyone, Ive been in the hospital. 

Hey guys, I wonder if anyone can help me, I have suffered from bulimia for the past 18months, (I am 19 by the way) and I have started to have anorexic tendencies.  I am 5"6 and weigh apporximately 160lbs.  I know, super obese, but i tended to binge on c**p. I have begun restricting, but seem to be ravenous all the time. Anyone got any tips to refrain from eating??

Much appreciated.
xxxxx

so im not even gonna mention my failure today.
just say that i stopped myself from getting too much into the binge.
probably stopped before i had like 300-400 cal.
i needed to eat. i was 37 okay!
so it wasnt my fault.


i really need to get some positive thoughts in my head because im getting no where with the negative ones there.

i wanna see how much i weigh.. but im too scared to.

Today I've eaten one glass of chocolate milk (roughly 207 cals), a sucker (30 cals) and 2 cranberry lemon cookies (approx 84 cals). Which is not bad, considering it's 2:15pm and I'm off to the gym once mom comes home with "sanitary products". God I hate being a woman. Anywho.

What should I do at the gym? I feel fat now. I'm running on the treadmill for 30 minutes for sure, but what should I do for my other hour?

I forgot to introduce myself, I think. I'm Lexii, I'm 15. I enjoy art, music and acting alongside science and don't have any goals in life. Music keeps me sane. I'm friendly and like talking! So hit me up. :]

so ive started doing the 2468 and today has gone gret ive had 210 cals...felt a bit spacey at work but all is well now...im worried about going up to 600-800 cals tho in the next few days as i obsess over staying at between 300-500 cals per day, ,ight use 600 as my maximum!!

hows everyone elses days going/gone???
msg me id love to hear from you

stay strong ladies

xxx

hey,
I hope that it's ok for me to join this community and share my thoughts and feelings with you all. Hopefully I can be of some comfort and support to all of you.
I've been an anorexic for just over three years now- I first started down this path when I was 13 and although I've been sent through recovery, it's not a path that I can seem to get away from. It's just part of my life and I've come to accept that until I truly want to get better, I never will.
I wanted to join a community where there are people that understand. :l  Where I can talk about what's in my head and not get told that I'm being stupid or that I'm being obsessive. Because I'm sure that most of you know exactly what it's like.
If I'm intruding into a group that doesn't really want more people, that's ok - I understand, just let me know.

stay strong.
thanks,
xox. :]

You know how we always think of all the stuff we ate and blah blah blah

try thinking of all the stuff u said no to. or all the things you walked by and said no to in ur head
or someone offered you that slice of cake u said no thank you too.

that makes me feel better <3

hope everyone is having a great day

Ashley

 Thank you guys for all the kind welcomings the support means alot!

hey guys, i was wondering if anyone on here wanted to become an msn buddy??
I'm finding life really hard at the moment and need someone to talk to.

aged between 14-17 because I'm fussy.

My friends dont understand so i really need someone who knows what it feels like.

possibly compete, but i dont really like stuff like that tho, and share tips and thinspo's etc...

thanks guys.

leave me a commnet if you want to.

xx

love you alllll

Georgie
xx

 hey guys! um so i have been the type of person that eats kind of here and there but lately i have been noticing that i'm like scared of food. i mean dont get me wrong i do have candy sometimes but i never binge hardcore there just little binges very rare. after i lost 12 pounds. I started just being obsessed with the scale. I'm 22 by the way. I'm very anxious when i see food. i do everything there is to ignore it. My therapist is the only one who knows I have anorexia. I don't think its full fledge because my bmi is 19 but i fit all the other criteria. I stared at the salad in my room for 15 minutes so nervous then i knew my mom wanted to see the empty dish  i was going to hide it in my room but i couldnt bare to do that because it is so unsanitory. I just threw it in the toilet. I am scared of food. I had a yogurt today 110 cals. I'll have to eat dinner. do you guys get scared around food?

Good morning/afternoon/evening. I just woke up. I slept 12 hours (in which I didn't eat) plus another 4 before that so I feel good. I just had a glass of chocolate milk and a sucker. Which is okay. I might go to the gym but it's suchhhh a long walk. ;__; I'm a lazy bitch. I did some e last night so I'm slightly blah. And I was drinking. But I burnt it off after with my girlfriend. Anyways! I think I might go. I feel skinnier over night. Though I still have a lot to loose.

 

What do you wear when you go to the gym? I don't want my fat to jiggle everywhere nor do I want people staring at me. Does wrapping yourself in saran wrap work?

What are some good exercises?